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Private Journal entry .01 [12 Jun 2005|11:20pm] [ mood | stressed ] While I was walking to breakfast with Master Healer Xlov'a this morning she recommended my usage of a private journal, such as this. So many of the Padawans, Knights, and Masters have been returning from battle with ghastly injuries and we have been encouraging that they record their own thoughts as part of the healing process. I suppose it is only natural with my caring of others that it didn't occur to me to use this method of reflection to relax myself. I must admit I did not care for the idea much at first because it seems too self centered, but Xlov'a pointed out that we are supposed to be mindful of our thoughts. So I will try my best and trust in her wisdom. It it becoming overwhelming being in the Temple so much lately, not because of the Temple itself but more the feelings the Jedi are bringing back with them from battle. I spent last evening speaking with a Padawan at length while I healed a severe leg injury. He was no more than fifteen and quite brave about his injury, but I could feel that he was exhausted and mentally weary. And such horrors he told me of it was just draining to listen to him. I have no doubt his Master will settle his thoughts but it seems there are more and more of these stories coming into the Temple. The Force is clouded to me except when I am healing and I wonder if this is caused by the unending grief being brought back from the War. I just need to clear my head but there has been little time with so many patients. This has helped some but I don't think it will be enough. I will ask for leave today so that I may meditate and try to reconnect with the Force. post comment

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